The loneliest place on Earth
Posted: Mon Oct 02, 2023 5:24 pm
Work in progress
Where is the loneliest on Earth to you?
Give yourself a little time and think about it.
It maybe after a cataclysm and you maybe the last person on the planet.
You maybe disabled and can't leave the house.
Maybe you're a night-watchman and you work alone, in the dark, in a scary place.
What if you're an astronaut and on a planet by yourself, everyone else died.
Yes these are bad scenarios. To me, they're bliss. You don't have to interact with anyone. But you have complete freedom, everyone except the disabled person.
For me, the loneliest place, is the scariest place, a room full of people.
How can this be? There are so many possibilities, so many people, so many conversations, it's my dream! Not to me. To me it's utterly overwhelming. I just want to run, screaming all the way back to my safe place... home.
I actually think the night-watchman could be a cool job, who doesn't like being a little scared? It's why horror movies are a massive part of society.
Deloitte attribute horror to being 21% of the entire Hollywood universe.
https://www2.deloitte.com/uk/en/insight ... stics.html
Personally I love a good horror movie. Maybe it's because I know it's safe, yet it's grotesque, like John Carpenters The Thing. Maybe it's because even though I know I'm safe, I feel for the protagonist and feel their fear too?
But back to the point, why is a room full of potential scary? I don't really know why, I know a little 'social lubrication' can help, but why am I scared? I think it's the worst feeling in the world. Rejection. To be rejected by your peers is certainly hollowing, but it's temporary. But what if it's not temporary, what if it's all the time?
Why would I feel like it's a permanent feeling?
Well that takes some explaining.
Even as a kid I was nervous of other people, I always found it hard to make friends, and even when I did I could only manage one or two friends, no more. If one of these friends tried to add another friend to the group, I'd always back away and eventually lose that friend(s). Then I'd be on my own again for months or even years. I haven't had a close friend now for 15+ years. Not one. I suppose my sister counts, but that's an arms length friendship. Yeah, even my sister is one step away from estranged.
Where is the loneliest on Earth to you?
Give yourself a little time and think about it.
It maybe after a cataclysm and you maybe the last person on the planet.
You maybe disabled and can't leave the house.
Maybe you're a night-watchman and you work alone, in the dark, in a scary place.
What if you're an astronaut and on a planet by yourself, everyone else died.
Yes these are bad scenarios. To me, they're bliss. You don't have to interact with anyone. But you have complete freedom, everyone except the disabled person.
For me, the loneliest place, is the scariest place, a room full of people.
How can this be? There are so many possibilities, so many people, so many conversations, it's my dream! Not to me. To me it's utterly overwhelming. I just want to run, screaming all the way back to my safe place... home.
I actually think the night-watchman could be a cool job, who doesn't like being a little scared? It's why horror movies are a massive part of society.
Deloitte attribute horror to being 21% of the entire Hollywood universe.
https://www2.deloitte.com/uk/en/insight ... stics.html
Personally I love a good horror movie. Maybe it's because I know it's safe, yet it's grotesque, like John Carpenters The Thing. Maybe it's because even though I know I'm safe, I feel for the protagonist and feel their fear too?
But back to the point, why is a room full of potential scary? I don't really know why, I know a little 'social lubrication' can help, but why am I scared? I think it's the worst feeling in the world. Rejection. To be rejected by your peers is certainly hollowing, but it's temporary. But what if it's not temporary, what if it's all the time?
Why would I feel like it's a permanent feeling?
Well that takes some explaining.
Even as a kid I was nervous of other people, I always found it hard to make friends, and even when I did I could only manage one or two friends, no more. If one of these friends tried to add another friend to the group, I'd always back away and eventually lose that friend(s). Then I'd be on my own again for months or even years. I haven't had a close friend now for 15+ years. Not one. I suppose my sister counts, but that's an arms length friendship. Yeah, even my sister is one step away from estranged.